Thursday, October 28, 2010



1a : change of physical form, structure, or substance especially by supernatural means
1b : a striking alteration in appearance, character, or circumstances
2: a typically marked and more or less abrupt developmental change in the form or structure of an animal (as a butterfly or a frog) occurring subsequent to birth or hatching
Sometimes I feel as though I exist in an endless state of metamorphosis, constantly withdrawing and reemerging, slightly altered. My head fills with ideas that I hesitate to execute for fear they will fail, so I close myself off. Once in a while I let something emerge which is lauded and applauded, so I stick my head out. Then insecurity strikes and back inside the cocoon I go, trying hard to reinvent the wheel. I can be my own worst enemy.

This state of constant reinvention can be a bit stressful. The endless closing and opening of the door tires the muscles, like a repetitive muscle injury. But the little company may have become a little stagnant and I think it needs to be freshened up. So it's time for a little metamorphosis. Of course, this entails a lot of thought and execution, much research and development, and some retooling -- all the things I thought I got away from when I left corporate USA. And don't confuse metamorphosis with growth - we're talking noticeable alteration versus gradual, progressive development. Believe me, constant growth is much simpler than metamorphosis any day!

There is a HUGE list of things to be done just to get the ball rolling. My poor website waits patiently for its remodel. My Twitter page has been totally neglected. My Etsy store is starved for attention. I need a fan page on Facebook. New patterns have been drafted but not marketed, much less stitched. Off the top of my head I've got three teaching proposals due by the end of the year that need samples completed, then instructions need to be typed (these are the ones that have been sent. I still have more to hunt). Housekeeping? To paraphrase my dear friend Cat, if you see a mess you clean it up. These are the times I wish for a replicator just to have a couple more of me to get everything done.

So it comes down to this: it is time to fully emerge and get something accomplished. I can't say for sure what it will be. After all, the journey is the thing, right? So, in another paraphrase:
Fasten your seat belts. It's going to be a bumpy ride.


Carol- Beads and Birds said...

Hi Theresa
This will be interesting to watch. Its sounds like you are taking a new beading direction. Well, in your business, I suppose you have to renew yourself as fasion and fads emerge.

Good Luck and, sorry, get busy!

Bead-Mused said...

Ha ha, Carol ~ crack that whip!

It's not a beading change per se. I don't think I'll EVER give up the itty bitties. It is more of a makeover where the biz is concerned. But it is also a change in how I run the biz, which entails a lot more WORK than I've been doing. No more resting on my laurels. Yikes!

Thanks for the well wishes and stay tuned! ♥

Mary Newton Designs said...

Oh, Theresa, this is how I feel most of the time. Seems like I never quite get where I'm going. Oh, well, it's the journey, right?

Bead-Mused said...

Mary, that's what I hear and until I see otherwise, I'll try to believe it. It's always nice to know someone else is in this leaky boat with me! ♥